我有点愣住,被欲望占满的大脑恢复了一丝清明。我看向Leo,今晚目前发生的事情都是我之前不敢想,甚至是不愿想的。我应该答应吗?这是他的真实需求吗?还是一道测试题?如果真的照做了,今夜之后该如何相处?1 h2 Y/ W- K2 e: c: z: y
4 V0 b& j2 y9 E* h/ P0 F2 _对了,今夜。我环顾四周,只有夜色如墨,星斗漫天,荒漠的夜晚降温很快,吹来的风不再像之前那么温暖。Leo靠在椅子上,表情埋在夜色中,没有要解释或者催我的意思。我咬咬牙,算了,这些都是他主动提的,我为什么要想这么多,就跟着节奏走就好了。6 q6 ^9 A& e- d' l( q) e
我手上还拿着一只Leo的袜子,我捏捏他的光脚丫,有些凉,想了想,还是帮他把袜子穿上了。我站到Leo前面,他还是怡然自得地躺在椅子上,完全没有要起来的意思。我盯着他的裆部,心一横,缓缓地跪了下去。
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膝盖快碰到地上的时候Leo伸手抓住了我的衣服:! j1 J8 D/ L/ j6 V. v
"Hang on Dustin. Go get my backpack"
; H |: T3 O7 s3 @' O- r- L& i语气轻松,声音里好像还有一丝笑意。我不知道他要搞什么名堂,但还是照做了。我在帐篷里翻了一会儿,找到他的背包,出来递给他。Leo接过去,拉开拉链,摸索了一会儿,拿出一瓶东西,再把拉链拉起来,背包丢到脚边,东西递给我:( t, Y' p- E& X' ~ @% l/ }
“Mouthwash. You can use my backpack. Kinda rocky here"
! B, Y/ y2 [) X我感激地看他一眼,跪在他的背包上,拧开瓶盖,黑漆漆的也看不清倒了多少,正打算送到嘴里,突然想到了什么,停了下来。正打算问,上面传来Leo的声音:
3 a8 S6 T; V( e6 S"I just like the stimulation. It's alcohol free. Doesn't do much else"
$ ?* z/ l3 Z x9 J0 h* b- T8 c$ a明白了,我漱了几下,吐掉。觉得口腔里残留还不少,担心他会不舒服,又努力挤了挤口水,吐了一次次。盖好瓶盖,放到一边。深吸一口,定了定神,脸朝Leo裆部凑过去。毕竟是人生第一次,而且对象是Leo,天人交战下我做得很慢很慢。他也没有催我,不知道是不是正自在地看着星星呢
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1 E9 z7 {: t7 E" p鼻尖终于碰到裤子的时候身子不自觉地抖了一下,定了定神,脸埋进去,无师自通地深吸了一口气。头上Leo轻叹了一声,我慢慢把气呼出来,反复做了几次,能感觉到脸上小Leo的轮廓慢慢变得清晰,Leo的体温也透过布料传了过来。基本都只能闻到洗衣粉的味道,Leo的体味真的很淡很淡。感觉到他把手搭在了我的后脑勺,用手指轻轻打着转4 A' q" P! x2 s1 K) j
过了一会儿,觉得有些呼吸不畅,我把脑袋歪到一边,近距离看着眼前的小山包,犹豫着要不要跨出这最后一步。大概也猜到我的想法,过了一会儿,头顶传来Leo的声音:; G# C3 }% @) V
"You can take it out now"5 i0 x$ r6 P0 m, n/ {: U0 x7 g% K
再不犹豫,我抬起手,正准备解开这最后的阻挡,结果头上挨了一下:
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我有些委屈,想反驳:
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话没说完鼻子就被Leo捏住:- v+ u! {; N5 r4 x
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说完松开我的鼻子,拍拍我的脸,摆弄了一下拉链头。我有些赌气地凑上去一口咬住,居然一次就咬紧了,头一歪,直接给扯到了底。金属的味道在口腔蔓延,我吐出拉链,把脸贴到内裤上。Leo胯下温暖的气息袭来,洗衣粉的味道更浓。几年下来这个味道组合再熟悉不过,但凡想到都能精准地勾起我的欲望,何况是近在咫尺。我的胯下瞬间又坚硬如铁,胀得难受,手不自觉想去释放
. k0 Q8 j! r7 t突然脑海里又出现了那个Leo在高高的地方看着我的画面,只是这次背景从大白天换成了满天星斗。脑子瞬间又清明起来,想起了Leo之前的要求,手停了下来,打算全心全意先伺候Leo
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( o' j0 J* R, N7 i结果接下来的事远比我想象得难。Leo穿的是宽松的内裤,前面有透气孔的那种。我脑海里构想的是我只需要把舌头顺着透气孔探进去,把小Leo请出来就好。结果小Leo精神起来以后梆梆硬,头部却离透气孔老远。想用舌头给它调整位置,发现我的修为实在抱歉,好几次感觉快捞出来了,却总卡在最后一关。暗暗懊恼为什么要先把小Leo弄硬,也许软着的话早就出来了。一来二去,肉棒越来越硬,更出不来了/ l" }4 i& K4 ~# Q5 ?. M: h2 j' _
舌头勾着Leo的棒身,能尝到一丝丝的咸味,偶尔还能碰到蛋蛋,味道明显更重一些。虽然小Leo还被困在内裤里,但也许我舌头的动作还是给Leo带来了不小的刺激,能听到这小子爽地长出了几口气
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, P4 L2 k/ q ^. A ~/ ?8 E/ q8 H+ V不知道第几次请小Leo出山失败后,我泄气了。因为担心Leo不舒服,我没有把手撑在他身上,倾斜的上身全靠腰力和腿力牵引,搞得现在舌头脖子脸甚至是腰和腿都全方位地累,自己的下面早都软了。然而小Leo还骄傲地顶天立地着,我对Leo感到非常抱歉,但因为实在是没力气了,我只好把舌头缩回来,隔着内裤摸索着亲了一下小Leo头部的位置,又舔了一下,头歪到一边,枕在他腿上,喘着气,心想这也太他妈难了。感觉他内裤全湿了,想来大部分都是我的口水吧
/ N/ J9 b- Z) G; j Y- Z休息了一会儿,感觉好了一些。Leo居然对我半道停下来这事儿没什么反应,我歉意更浓,不好意思看他,只能小声说道:7 p- F6 t( A* D' W; F3 W, b
“Leo I'm very sorry..."
r: w, a" j$ Z( q结果头发被Leo一把抓起,被迫抬头面对他。Leo身子前倾,暗夜里目光如电,灼灼地盯着我。长这么大还是第一次被这样抓着头发,有些生疼,有些羞辱,但我好像也没什么抵抗的立场,只能忍。半晌,Leo开口,语气促狭:! w" v: t$ u, x
“That was terrible Dustin. How should one even make up for that?"
, }; Y* Q5 I' K! o6 K2 _也不等我回答,用另一只手捏住我的鼻子,原本抓住我头发的手松开,从内裤里掏出JJ。我还没看清轮廓,就听到Leo说:
# ]7 R% g1 Z4 @# G“Open your mouth, lips wrapped around your teeth": x& S) z7 J' H, x2 p C9 c! _
其实被捏住鼻子的时候嘴巴自然就会张开,我刚凭感觉拿嘴唇包住牙齿,Leo就直接捅了进来。没想到他捅那么深,第一下就到了喉咙,并且还停在那边。我可怜的喉咙刚刚经受过Leo的脚趾,对深喉算是有了一些粗浅的认知和经历,但鸡巴比脚趾更粗更长,感觉这次我整个喉咙都被填满,完全无法呼吸。能感觉到喉咙被异物侵入后有一些痉挛,还有一些反胃,但都没有想象的严重。Leo没有就此放过我,按在我脑袋上的手还在用力,龟头慢慢向喉咙更深处挺进,坚定而残酷,我甚至能感觉到脖子都被撑开了
: L1 n: X! Q% @头顶Leo舒爽地长叹一声:' r" F1 \) p# {4 }& C
“Good boy Dustin. Keep it up"
+ x' S/ v8 P# z$ S说完仍继续缓缓地挺进,喉咙深处压力越来越大,甚至有一丝火辣辣的感觉。我受到鼓励,也怕破坏Leo的兴致,更尽力让脖子和嘴巴保持直线,方便他挺进。不一会儿却无力地发现,我气快用完了,嘴却还没碰到根部
" |8 W) O6 c3 \/ Z1 \) Y; R感觉到有些缺氧,身体本能地挣扎,却发现除了喉咙,脑袋也被牢牢控制着。可能是收到了我的求饶信号,Leo不再挺进,正以为他会让我喘口气的时候,Leo恶作剧般突然用力一挺,肉棒整根没入。还不等我反应过来,脑袋两边一紧,又被从要命的肉棒上拔了出来
8 l N2 f. `1 u8 n9 P) P6 |我贪婪地呼吸着久违的空气,喉咙又痒又疼,咳地眼泪都出来了。不知是因为Leo插得太深,还是拔得太快,抑或兼而有之。原来这就是Leo要的补偿么?
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) a% Y2 T4 T+ h; C8 G8 O, c呼吸刚稍稍平缓,头发又被Leo抓起,脸被迫抬高看着他。Leo坐直,居高临下看着我:
) H( M# l. T- Y“You learnt your lesson?"( x; Q g; [+ _( p0 D7 T* p% R
我赶紧点头,哑着嗓子回应:& Z: z% h5 N% L5 x6 U4 [
“Yes Leo”
/ ^; q& Y6 S) B“Good. Now try working on your breathing"
2 o: k" h3 I0 d% T6 N2 e说完手上用力,大肉棒再次插进我嘴里。依然直抵喉咙,这次却没有静止下来,而是缓缓地前后抽插。龟头一进一退,毫不留情地填满我的喉咙,又戏谑地离开,每次都准确地在我最敏感的地方肆意摩擦着,就像个喜欢恶作剧的小孩% P: v9 Q n' e( `) V8 o- |0 p3 N* f* j
几次缓慢的抽插以后我才意识到Leo有意引导我去慢慢掌握被操嘴的时候的呼吸节奏。我心下感激,又有些抱歉实在是经验为零,明明该是让他爽,却连最基本的都还要他教* s4 V! D7 j6 h) Z9 y/ N
Leo感受到了我的呼吸,满意地拍拍我的脸:. z+ y. G0 _: @2 H* m& n
“Doing great Dustin. You're truly a natural"
7 M/ B) d. h" o3 z说完抽插速度开始加快,捅地也更深。喉咙似乎有些适应了Leo的侵入,疼痛和反胃逐渐被一丝丝酥麻代替。又或是它知道反正也无法抵抗侵入的异物,次数多了便也麻木了
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期间Leo几次把鸡巴整根拔出来,脑袋凑过来查看我的状态,确认我没事后才继续把我的喉咙当飞机杯用。发现掌握呼吸技巧后,操嘴的时候被动的一方真的也不用做啥,就努力把嘴张开,让牙齿离鸡巴尽量远,喉咙和脖子保持直线就好。我甚至有空从下面偷偷看Leo,还有他头顶的漫天繁星。心下感叹,几十亿光年外传来的光啊,请跟我一起见证这难忘的一晚吧! |5 ]8 W- X- G; `6 F M
不知过了多久,嘴巴都酸了,口水大概也流了一地。偶尔能尝到一丝咸味,大概是Leo的前列腺液吧。Leo突然速度加快,我心里想说终于来了,他会射我嘴里吗?还是会拔出来?我呼吸跟不上,但这个时候又不能打扰他的兴致,便干脆闭气,料想应该不会太久吧. Q' O1 p$ n% [/ Y6 x. ~6 U
很快就听到Leo低吼一声,手紧紧压着我的头,肉棒连根没入,在嘴巴里一跳一跳的,滚烫的液体有力地打在食道深处。奇怪,都该是接近体温的情况,为什么会感觉到烫?4 ]7 _+ S2 v* [& W4 p
闭气的时候注意力很集中,能感受到Leo插在我嘴里射精的整个过程。一开始龟头收缩后能射很远很有力,后面虽然那边还是一跳一跳的,但精液只是缓缓流出来。因为是直接插进去射的,我也尝不到什么味道,却似乎也没有不吞的选项。射完以后肉棒还是硬梆梆,Leo好像也没要马上拔出来的意思,我做了个尝试吞咽的动作,喉咙夹着Leo的肉棒,可能是因为射精之后龟头更敏感,Leo又舒爽地长叹一声
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Leo好像进了贤者时间,鸡巴没有要从我嘴里拔出来,却慢慢软了下来。软下来的肉棒温柔的滑过喉咙,停在我的舌头上,我也第一次真切地尝到了Leo精液的味道。我轻轻用舌头舔了一下,有些咸,甚至还有一点点甜味,没有想象的腥,像浓稠的鱼羹。说来好笑,今晚被这根肉棒折磨了这么久,居然才第一次舔到Leo的龟头,之前都被主人直接送进了喉咙0 J( j# F" \. U9 J
我继续用舌头帮小Leo打扫战场,肉棒软塌塌地停留在舌头上,像个没睡醒的孩子。不知道是不是因为刚刚吞了Leo精液的关系,现在对小Leo有种特殊的依恋,有点爱不释口。但我也不想打扰到Leo的贤者时间,只能尽量轻柔缓慢地用舌头去清理各种残留。当然,今晚抽插了这么多次,除了最后汨汩流出来的尾段精华,其余的应该也早就被洗刷干净了吧
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过了一会小Leo似乎又有抬头的意思,Leo摸摸我的脑袋,声音里又恢复了一丝笑意:
2 S& j6 i- v, F$ C, Z“Can't get enough of it?"
. ^# `& v+ q( E) c" m( r我吐出小Leo,有点不好意思:
I0 D( u. R3 }' g# ~“No just...doing some cleaning. It's all good now"边说边把小Leo放回内裤里,再帮Leo拉上拉链。然后再给Leo穿鞋 - 这是多年下来帮Leo按脚后养成的习惯。中帮穿起来有点费时间,好不容易穿好了一只。看了看Leo,他正怡然自得地看着星星,想了想,还是有些艰难地问:
. J$ c( T0 D7 H! r. W% ~9 i"Leo how...was...it..."5 Y" k1 @& R2 S2 k. i9 X, y& I
“Not bad for an amateur"Leo回答地很轻松,又转头看着我,还是那个轻佻的语气:“But you've gotta work on it for your future partner for sure"
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“Leo I'm not into other guys. I didn't even know I could fall for a guy until I met you. Even then I've been trying my best to keep it to myself because I know, well, you are straight. I have been mostly straight in my life too, up until you. This is the first time I ever have a dick in my mouth and because it is with you, I hardly see I'll do it with anyone else"
" e3 I( }: ^+ F没有回音,不意外。算了,反正今晚都弄成这样了,干脆把这三年来都不敢说的话一次说明白好了:
- f1 E2 V+ m k7 {"I'd do anything for you really, as long as you asked. I bet you can see that too. In the beginning I might have let this feeling get the better of me and bear some unrealistic expectations from time to time, since you know, I was immature and you were just such a big presence in my life. But gradually I've learned that I'm perfectly happy with you just being around and I get to see you, to talk to you, to even... physically touch you, like giving you a massage or something. Seeing you happy makes me even happier. I also look up to you for a lot of things: you're outgoing, emotionally stable, both book and street smart from my standard, and just fun to hang out with. I remember you once said you were treating me like your little brother. I'm not sure how true it was or if something has since changed, but from the bottom of my heart, I'd fight to have a bigger brother like you."
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“I don't know where this is going after tonight - I won't blame you if you do decide to keep your distance moving on, and I probably deserve that too. But I was hoping we could go back to where we were, and I promise I won't cross the line"
9 r# _1 [3 ?( ^% S2 |1 z断断续续说完一大段话,Leo就这么静静地看着我,半晌也不接话。我低下头,抬手擦了擦嘴边的哈喇子印,有些沮丧:
% F( ^% o! v. S& U& \; D“Sorry if it's too much to ask"
) E0 B# E' Y% ^; r1 x仍然没听到Leo的回音,漆黑的大荒漠,万籁俱寂,耳畔的风呼啸而过,仿佛把虫语都吹散了。心像坠入海里的石头,一点点下沉。就在我快要放弃的时候,上面突然传来Leo的声音:
) p6 Z1 X4 e. [$ m5 c: Y0 e$ J“No nothing has changed Dustin"
1 s5 i/ ^/ r9 P: M* `$ d) D我抬头看向他,Leo抬头看着星星:4 X& Z7 z& y5 J0 u1 H
“I wasn't forced tonight. I led you. You had nothing to be blamed. I knew something was up because, this may sound cocky, generally people tend to listen to me. But with you things just get more dramatic. I like girls, so I can't make any promises in that regard - you know that too. What I can promise is that I won't judge or slip away because of tonight. In fact,"1 @1 u; h6 y* S8 Y; |* D/ D) d$ Q' `
Leo突然坐直,脸凑到我跟前,有些兴奋地说:
5 Y- \$ ]5 E" d“I talked to my dad the other day. His company sponsors H1. I mentioned your case and he said he could help if you still didn't get a job before graduation simply due to your status. Of course I want you to try your best first, since I don't want to be stuck with him. But that'd be one great insurance if you really wanted to stay"
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. E* Y) o% h( g我看着眼前的Leo,每次讲到兴奋的事情的时候,总是那幅神采飞扬的表情,就像最初见到时的样子。弯弯的眼睛闪着亮亮的光,跟身后的漫天星斗一起,又在我这儿打开了一扇窗8 r. f3 w3 [$ w- h2 @
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"You're welcome to do your things now. I approve"
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Leo用那只还没穿鞋的脚轻轻踩了一下我的裆部:
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明白了,其实侍候Leo太久,下面早就没感觉了。再加上刚刚那一波情绪,好像真的没有射的欲望了。只好跟Leo说:2 O0 A; f9 r' q( k2 {6 O! ~: n
"I think I'm over it. Can't feel any urge now"
# ^- v, T, N. R! \Leo眉毛一提,促狭地看着我:+ H( q3 R6 t/ O$ X8 n
“Now you've really gotta work on that for your future partner"
/ P! K6 W | V$ H) D# j我想站起来揍他,结果因为实在是跪太久,膝盖一软,又落回到原地,重心不稳,一头栽到Leo胸口。我挣扎着想起来,被Leo按住。头埋在Leo胸口,我紧张得浑身僵硬,正打算开口,就听到了Leo的声音:* @7 ]$ n. R: P- N8 W& c
“This is my first one with a dude as well. Might have lost sight of your needs. I'm sorry Dustin"( `0 T" ^# P$ p/ l$ j2 Z! s7 g, q
Leo声音本就低沉,胸腔共鸣明显,贴着胸口听他说话的时候感受着那个细微的震动,简直脑袋都酥了,花了好一会儿才明白过来他讲了什么。没等我回复,感觉头顶动了一下,好像有个软软的东西凑了过来,轻轻点了一下: E; I3 t' u% B8 t) ^
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天杀的Leo到今天都不承认那是他的嘴唇,只要问到统一说是下巴。那些飘了几十亿年的光啊,有没有哪一位可以给我作证呀。。。$ f: u" b7 i3 ?: `1 e
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